I'm sat in work,bored out of my skull,I onlÿ started 2 hours ago and I hav at least another 6 left,phil is in at 1 tho so that's a bit better!only 4 hours till he gets here and 5 till jax gets in,wish they were here now,god I'm so bored?!!

I'm gettin my tat finished on tuesday,I'l post a pic wen its done!

Also gettin my hair done on thurs,decided to go fully blonde and I'm gonna try the long concave bob look,rihanna's old style,It needs a gud cut but I can keep it long 2,well we'l just hav 2 w8 and c,its for my hols anyway,I go in 2weeks and 2days,monday 7th,and I think I really need it,I'm feelin miserable lol!I no y tho and I'm sure I'l be fine in time,I guess some things just take longer to heal than others,but everythin heals eventually,sometimes ur just left with a scar,there's always next time 4 me ay lol!

Anyway,I'm just listenin 2 the new ashanti album on my iPod touch,its gud!

I best get back 2 work,plus I'm on my blackberry agen and my bill will be huge lol!

C ya l8r!xxxx

Hey all,I'm pretty gud at the mo,sat in bed watchin big brother,once agen I'm hooked,lol,it happens every year!

Well its 3weeks 2day until I head off to sunny turkey,where at the moment its 42degrees!wow can't wait,went shopping 2day 2 get sum bits n bobs,and I'm collecting my travel money 2morrow,so yeah I'm alomst ready for it!I'm so excited,I think that I'm in desperate need of a holiday,and its exciting because my dad and my bro will be coming with us,its their first holiday too,so its gonna be even better!

My tattoo is almost finished now,just got some detail 2 add 2 it and that's on the 24th n then that's it! Plannin another 3 small ones though lol!we'll c how it goes,this ribcage one has almost put me off wantin another forever!

Well that's pretty much it from me at the moment,I'm sure I could rant on,but I'm using my blackberry lol,and I am bored!

C u all soon!

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well got my tattoo outline done, and here it is!

im having it colored(shaded) tomorrow at 6 and 7 and im preying it gets finished because omg it was sooooooo painful!

the top of the rib cage was absolute agony!

its bearable but holy crap it hurt, im so nervous for tomorrow now lol, i'm excited tho, cant wait to see my birdys come to life lol!

32 days till im off on holiday and oh my lord i cant wait!!!!!!

it'll be nice to show off my tattoo on the beach too lol!!

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well i am going for my FITH tattoo today, i'm booked in for 2 hors starting at 6 tonight!!

i am sooooooo nervous, never been this nervous about a tattoo b4, i guess its because im having it on my rib cage and i feel nervous about getting my kit off lol!

i'm going to use this tattoo as an incentive to become the 7 stone goddess i once was lol!(maybe not quite a goddess, but a hot mama lol!!!)

im excited to show it off on my hol's tho, no one cares if ur a lil' bit out of shape wen ur on ur jollies lol!

anyway its a large tattoo, and will probs take about 4 sessions to complete it, so im booked in for 4 2 hour sessions throughout June!!

and omg omg just over a month till im off to Turkey for two fabulous weeks of sun!

i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO exited u have no idea lol!!!!!!!

ive got almost everything that i need ready, and im pretty much ready to go, just need to sort my travel insurance and a couple of clothes n stuff, but other than that bring it onnnnnnnn lol!!!!

we hady Zak neutered last wednesday and it was a problem right from the start....

we thought his stitches had come undone because he was bleeding pretty bad, so we took him to the emergency vet after the united match on wednesday, we were in there for 15minutes, saw the vet who said everything looked ok and he would be fine, he gave us some cream, went to pay, and we were SHOCKED at the £96 bill we recieved!!!!!!!!

the things we do for our pets!

and if that wasnt bad enough, we had to take him back to the vets yesterday because his nut sack has swollen to the size of a grapefruit!

the vet gave us 2 lots of tablets to help release the fluid, and to help him heal faster, and he gave him an anti biotic shot too, the bill was ok this time as it was only £15, bloody £96 can you actually believe that!!

anyway, Max is getting bigger, huge infact lol, i'll have to post a picture, he is one shot away from being allowed to walk outside the garden, should be fun trying to control them both! im excited actually!!!!

Right! i need to get ready to take Zakky out!

write soon, and let you all know how my tattoo went!

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well i dont really have much to say, i feel a bit miserable, well i'll be honest, i feel very miserable today

god knows why, maybe its tryin to pretend all the time, or maybe im just sick of everyone!!!GRRRRR!!!!

i am sooooo fed up of everyone right now, jesus, people just bug me so much right now

im such a bitch

i'm sure i'll be fine soon lol, im just havin a bit of a hard time at the momet, u ever feel like u cant trust anyone, even your bestist friends in the world, thats kinda how i feel now, im just so glad i have my david, he loves me like no one else ever can, i see it everytime i look into his eyes, i feel so humble when im with him, and even tho im not as slim as i was, he always tells me he loves my curves!

:D

god i do love him, the sod lol!

i feel a bit better now, i'm gonna continue watchin my criminal minds season 2 boxset now lol, cuddled into my "reason to smile" - david

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U.N.I.T.E.D UNITED ARE THE TEAM FOR ME!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOW!!

OMG what a win it was last night, chelsea did a good job of seein us off for a lil' while and if im honest i thought they had it in the bag, but, the mighty red army came, saw, and CONQUERED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god i love bein a manchunian, our team is so good, and it not just about the winnin, its about the whole team, they did us proud out there! lets make it a treble nest lads!!!!!!!

we went to old trafford after the match finished last night, and oh my god! it was amazin, we walked right threw and went outside the stadium, it was chaos but it was welllllllll gud, loved every minute!!!

anyway love to say sorry to the blues, but im not so i wont lol!!!!!

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Hey all, hope everyone is doin gud,

i'm doin just fine!!! Watchin a bit of family guy and relaxin in the absolutely GORGEOUS weather!!!

hasn't it been just great all the sun we've had! i am burned like a lobster, but it's always worth it lol!

holiday in 8weeks!!!!!!!! cannot wait i've already planned loads of trip that i fancy, i really want to go scuba diving and snorkeling!

everything is grand in the BiOrb, i've got a couple of new fish, and i'm still under-stocked, so i have the option to get more if i want to!

Got a new addition in our family now too!! in the form of a 9 week old laradour puppy called MAX!! he is beautiful! our zakky likes him too, he was very warey at first although now he is totally in love with him!

money is going gud too at the moment and i treated myself to a wii fit when it came out a couple f weeks ago, im doin pretty good on it too lol!

annnnnyyyyway family guy calls and i cant resist it anymore lol!

i'll write again shortly xxxx

Well first of all, HHHHIIIIII! just incase you all forgot i was here lol, i'm sorry i've not written for agggggeeess, life's been mental!

It really has been a crazy month, some of it good and some of it bad i suppose, lets start at the beginning, i think its always a good place for anyone to start lol! Well i did a bad thing, but it was bound to happen at some point, and although i am glad it did happen, it was still wrong, you see i am a good girl, and i like to stick to my good girl ways if i can lol, but this one time i slipped up, big time!

I'm like a spoilt kid, i always want something more than what i've already got, so i never see that what i had in the first place was already enough, anyway thats the reason i think i slipped up, that and the way i've been feeling about this certain subject, but i suppose what's done is done, and there's no changing things now is there?!?

I always say, "It's better to regret the things you have done, than it is to regret the things you have not done!" and although i don't regret it, at least i'm not left wishing it would happen!

i need to get over this whole thing now though, because i am being so selfish, i need to let the person move on and stop holding them back, because i already have what they want so badly, and for me to prevent them from having it is simply unfair, let alone cruel of me. So as of right now, i shall pretend that the whole thing, right from day one was just a dream, and that none of it ever really happened (for their sake, not my own!).

Me and David have been arguing quite a lot, i hate it when we fight, but at the moment we are fighting loads, i think its my guilt that causes me to argue, so that he can hurt me inside a little, so i feel less guilty, but he wont, he loves me way too much, and i love him for it, i know we'll get over the silly fighting, we are engaged for god's sakes, and we're plannin on havin kids, so we kid of have to put our arguments aside for the sake of our future!lol!

on other fronts, one of our dog's passed away last wednesday, he was old, but it was sudden, he didn't act like an old dog, you would never have believed how old he was to look at him and he never once acted as if he was a day older than 3 lol! Unfortunately though he had a stroke, and there was nothing the vets could do for him, we had to have him put to sleep, it was the kindest thing we could do, and at least now he isn't suffering.

We decided that we wanted to have him cremated alone, and that we would like to get his ashes back in a small wooden casket that has his name engraved on the top, and we are planning on planting a bush/plant in the back garden to represent his life! (people do get attached to their pets, it shocking i know!)

Positive news now though lol! life in the BiOrb is doing great, and after having to empty the whole tank of water and fish, i have finally restocked, with a few new additions and some old ones!

We are also planning on getting an new puppy sometime soon, as the house is far too quiet without our other doggy, and our german shepherd misses him loads! we are thinking of getting the same be=reed as our last dog, a labrador, and we are definitely going to get a puppy rather than an older dog, so we can watch him grow again!

And finalllllly!!!! My FITH tattoo has been designed and finished (by my-wonderful-self) and i have given it to the pass on guy at work, who is taking it to the tattooist on wednesday next week, its a large tat, which i'm having on my ribcage (left) starting under my arm, and finishing just onto my hip bone!!

Its all colored, and it humming birds and a Phoenix with flowers in places (it looks better than it sounds!) and i think it will take a good few hours to complete, but with a bit of luck i@ll have it finished before i go on holiday on July 7th (which is getting closer woooop) because if not, i may look a liccul bit silly on the beach, with a half finished tattoo lol!

I'll update soon(ish) lol!

Keep safe x x x x x x x x x x x

hey all, i had a good weekend this weekend, went out with my mates n got arse holed on saturday lol! didnt turn in work the next day tho which was a naughty thing to do!?!?!

i was gonna go out on friday too, to a work gathering, but i was too poor and too tired lol! I wish i had now tho, cos somethin happened between my two friends, which i was a bit surprised about!

one went home with the other lol! yep i hate to admit it but i was a liccul bit jealous, but i made up 4 it kinda on sat, had a chat with my mate and i felt a bit better later on lol!

he is ded sweet to me bless him, i still dont know why tho, i guess i will neva no, there doesnt always have to be an alternative motive does there lol!

i have now decided that i am getting one more tattoo doe, a large one, down accross my ribcage and just onto my groin, im going to have blossom flowers, i have designed it myself, and i have sed that if i can lose at least a stone in 6 weeks then i will celebrate and have it done! if nt then i am going to have to wait untill i et back from my hols in july, which totally defies the point of havin it done, because i wont really get to show it off anywhere wlse other than the beach, and theres deffo no beaches in manchester lol!!!!!

oh yeh, my bag came from ebay and it is OMG GORGEOUS lol, really really happy with it lol!

life in the biOrb is great and the babies are doing very well

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I know i havent written for quite a while and to be honest i have no excuses lol!

since the last BiOrb update, i have had 7 new additions to my tank, in the for of baby guppies , and by the looks of things i will be expecting few more today, which is exciting but not very good for my fully stocked BiOrb lol!

Having the 60Litre is tons better and im finding it more fun, i have added loads of real plants which are thriving! i now have about 10 fully grown plants in there, and it looks great!i bought 25 live plants from ebay and they were great, too many for me mind you so i had to give my dad some for his tank! i also invested in 6 moss balls off ebay, only cost me a fiver, and when they arrived last week i stuck them in, and omg, they are great:D!

i added two new ornaments too, a large piece of bogwood, and a small fake tree trunk, along with the log that i had already, i also threw in a few more feng shui pebbles (different colours to the white ones i already had) and voila its like peering into an amozonian river:p!

the sucking loaches i have been given, have done an amazing job of keeping the tank crystal clear and my clown loaches are all glowing they are that fully coloured, which means that they are happy!

also i am still addicted to ebay and i won a stunning bag and a brand new pair of mary jane wedges off there last night! cannot wait for them to arrive!

anyway me n jax are going to phils tonight,which should be fun, if the last time was anything to go by lol:b!

i'll write soon i promise!

xxx